it is not "bothering" me to call and check on me! If I am laying down, the phone that is in my room has the ringer off, so it does not disturb me. I am kind of sick of people saying that they did not call because they didn't want to bother me. If you have been reading the blog you can tell that I have a rough week and then 2 fairly normalish ones. Sure I am tired, who wouldn't be in my condition? But by not calling (especially when you used too) it says you don't care or can't handle this. If you can;t handle, it just say so... I would understand...... everyone handles illness differently.
I have a friend who I am extremely close to who said to me shortly after my diagnosis.. You know I don't handle these things well and I don't know what to do or say, but know I am here just tell me what I can do.
My outings are limited due to my doctors not wanting me exposed to situations where I may be exposed to lots of germs, due to my immune system being compromised. This is extra important during flu season. So most evenings I am sitting here hanging out with Bella chilling out and watching bad TV. TO those of you that have called me to check on me.... THANK YOU.. it means the world to me.
ahhhhhh...if i ever need to realize that no matter how bad my day or days have been, there are friends who are just wanting "their friends"...then i just read the blog and my day seems not so bad. Because denise will never pull a punch or sugar coat how the world needs to "roll." thanks for keeping me humble and realizing what makes you (and me) tick. i am one of those who are there from a distance too often. i will pray i can change that. luv ya D
ReplyDeleteNo Karl, you are one of those who is present for sure. You call, you comment here and you will actually call me to go to dinner.. thank you for making me feel normal by that small gesture. Luv ya too!
ReplyDeleteGuilty. I really don't have an issue "dealing with" you having cancer, I simply assume that you are doing what you have always done - kick ass and take names - and that you have no need of my silly chit chat. I am sorry. I will do better, and if I have ever not said it, I do love you. Most of the time I can arrange to help out with errands or whatever as long as I have a little notice to make sure the kids are covered. Not to excuse my bad friend behavior, it is indeed all on me. I simply did not realize how it feels on your end.
ReplyDeleteIt was not directed at you either Michelle. I appreciate that everyone thinks I "kick ass and take names" normally I do, but normally I am not sick. I probably should not have even put anything on here, but it really does hurt sometimes that the people you have been there for in the past are so not there for you when you need them. Just a simple phone call now and then would mean the world from some of them. But I get nothing.. at all.
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