Today is the day it hit me hard.
I will be losing my breast. I will be wearing ugly bras that don't show cleavage from now on. I will have bags collecting fluid leaking from my body. I have to have my breast cut from my body or I will die.
I don't know how I got here. How did this happen? When will I wake up from this nightmare and be healthy, carefree and happy bc it was just a nightmare? Did I do something to deserve this? What the hell am I supposed to learn from all this? What if I don't learn what I am supposed to learn?
I have spent much of the day crying over my impending loss. And praying this is the 1st and only time I go around with cancer of any kind in my body.