.... I am scared. This is why I do not listen to people about medical procedures. I keep being told this will be worse than the mastectomy was. This does not make it any easier. Maybe it is the unknown of having surgery in a hospital I have never been a patient in before....but it is good hospital. perhaps it is the fact that I am sure I will not have my own room this time (for those of us who live alone this is uncomfortable) or that I will not have my snuggly puggys to sleep with me.
Either way...I am scared this time. I was not nervous for my first chemo because I knew it had to be done I was anxious before first radiation, but I think that was just because it was so close to the surgery. I wasn't nervous for the mastectomy because I had been operated on by that surgeon before and I knew he would be amazing (and he was).
New hospital, new doctor...new boob! Well step one anyway. Tomorrow will be a long day no matter how I look at it.
Thanks for checking in on me and I will try to update as soon as I am able.
xoxoxo,
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Aaahhhh!! Now it dawns on me.. surgery. Duh!! Well hon I am sorry I was so slow on the uptake but I gotcha now. It is okay to be scared - but by God you were SO head-on with the stuff that scares most people, it is kinda hard to believe. I am certain, as likely are all of us who know you, that you will do amazingly well and things will be fine. I am one to over-think the hell out of most stuff and I am coming to learn that almost nothing is ever nearly as bad as we imagine.
ReplyDeleteBig hugs to you, girl - and congratulations on overcoming your fears AND that nasty disease. You are amazing!!